Lazy Sunday

Doing better today. Had a 4 hour phone conversation last night until 4am! LOL but it was nice to actually talk to another human being and not all superficial crap but just honest what is on your mind stuff. It reminded me of everything I have been avoiding in life - intimacy, closeness, kindness, compassion, concern and love. Not saying I am ready to run out and be around people but it was a nice change. Sometimes we need a reminder of what we have turned away from to make us refocus and put our lives back in perspective. I am going to try to make an effort to get out more and do and see the things I have been wanting to ...I do not need a husband or a boyfriend or whatever to live my life. Hopefully I can keep this newfound conviction but to keep it real..probably not.

But as a result of last night, I slept off and on all day and did not leave the house or do anything really productive. I would say it was nice for a change but aside from he sleeping part, this summed up most of my weekends when el kiddo does not have activities...just me sitting home waiting to go back to work. That, I do want to change. I live in a beautiful place with tons to do, I need to get out there and do it. I just sometimes get so tired of having to be strong and do what is necessary instead of what I want to do. I feel like I have been doing that all my life and I am sick of it. To take a line from The Color Purple - "All my life, I've had to fight..." LOL, sorry couldn't help it. Tyler Perry is one of my favorite people and he always uses that line in his movies and plays. Did I mention the HUGE crush I have on him...lol. Probably the one man right now who would make me rethink the whole - "I am never getting married again" edict.

Right now I am watching Ella Enchanted with my daughter and her best friend. Lord that is my life...I usually do not get to watch adult movies (and no I do not mean porno! LOL). It is a cute movie though and the girls really like it.

I did manage to cook dinner tonight since I felt I had to do something since I was lazy all day...skirt steak, mashed taters and sugar snap peas. Was good if I do say so myself. smile. I have promised myself to start my diet tomorrow and start back to working out at least 3 days a week to start. Keep your fingers crossed for me! LOL.

On a sad note - my sister's best friend ( they have been friends for like 34 years so she is more like family than anything else)...her daughter was shot yesterday in a drive by shooting in Boston. She was riding to drop her husband off at work so she could use the car to go pick up their baby at his aunt's house...they just got married August 5 of this year! Well shooting broke out on one block they were driving down and her husband pulled her down and threw his body over hers. The bullet came in through the door and went into her thigh. The hospital feels that they would cripple her for sure if they try to remove it. So they are going in on Tuesday to put in pins and try to reinforce the bone but there is no guarantee that she will walk again or that she will not be crippled anyways. She is only 29 years old and has a 1 year old daughter and a brand new husband and was supposed to complete her Master's Degree this December. So please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.

I am going to go finish watching the movie...I forgot to fill you in on the high school sweetheart but I will just keep you hanging until tomorrow..smile. Good night all!

peace, love & hairgrease,
~CC